The Darkness Must Fade II Closed
Although he still had many fears for his relationship with Thor; he did not regret for a second for the child they were going to have; it may have come a bit early and was out of wedlock, but he loved Thor with all of his being, planned or not he wanted to have his child, and for them all to be a family. Odin’s lies had destroyed the family they’d once had; but now with the love between them and the life inside of him, they could build a new and better one, and Loki would never let their child suffer like he had.
Waking up daily to Thor was a dream come true, he had thought a day like this would never come. He often wondered if it was in fact a dream, or an illusion his magic was casting; but then Thor would wrap his arms around him and kiss him with such love and passion that he knew it was real, and that only made his heart soar. Gone was that feeling of emptiness and self loathing, he no longer felt lost and alone; he finally had a reason to feel alive and happy; nothing could take that away so long as Thor was at his side.
They were destined for one another, he was sure of it; his heart beat only for one thing and that was the love that Thor had for him. Defying Thanos would come at a price, he knew that; but he’d gladly stand back and let all the nine realms fall to Thanos, just so long as he was able to stay with Thor. It was a selfish thing to think and as Asgard’s king he was supposed to have it’s best interest at heart; but he couldn’t leave Asgard to be with Thanos, not now he had a reason to stay. He would fight to keep Asgard safe, but if there ever came a choice between Thor and his throne…he would choose Thor.
Gazing into the bright blue eyes, he leant over; a gentle and tender kiss being placed on his brother’s lips. “I feel assured it is a male, he certainly moves like one.” He was after all, no stranger to pregnancy. “I hope he takes after mother too; she was so gentle and good…I only hope I can be as good to our child as she was to us.” It was getting easier to talk about Frigga, he still felt responsible for her death but Thor had become a good distraction for his grief; he had someone who could understand how he felt. “You need not fear my love.” Caressing his hand gently he sighed and closed his eyes. “I would never do anything to risk our child. This power keeps me strong, it will make our son powerful.”
It would be a lie to say he had not craved this; even if the very room they were in held some of the worst memories of his lifetime it was now aglow with warmth that had veiled the pain, the residue of the past washed off the tiles and walls was only the physical part of. The most important part, how his heart was no long heavy and how his chest was weightless when they were close, it helped more than any external fixings could have.
Still, despite the caresses and loving touch of lips, the dread loomed over them, or so Thor sensed it did, ready to pounce, taking the form of the one he yearned to lay his weapon on. Thanos remained in his mind, like a small festering wound in the back of his skull, and was the sole reason for his inability to enjoy what was so blissful and comforting.
With the tingle from the lingering kiss still on his lips Thor couldn’t help but allow a wry smile to form, watched on as Loki closed his eyes and feeling the corners of his mouth drop again the blond spread his hand to envelop his brother’s, trapping the slightly colder one under his palm and resting them both on the slowly rise and fall of Loki’s belly. He wanted to hum in content but the sound that escaped him was more of a choked back sigh as Thor moved to rest his cheek on black hair.
' Fear and worry will remain, there is little to nothing that will free me from it..' He would always fear losing his brother, he had lost him several times over and he would not survive another incident. Were it to happen there now was another life that would be equally lost, the thought alone forced Thor's eyes to scrunch shut to keep the stinging from forming tears. ' It is not about power, I wish for life and health, safety for you both.' How safe he would be was of little importance, but he had felt the Aether, knew what it did when endangered and had lost Loki, mind and body, to it. All he really wanted was for it to be gone from his beloved, once and for all.